2005-04-08 - 1:30 a.m.

a major upside to having been a non-christian throughout adolescence is that all the issues that usually get pinned on religion did not get so pinned in my case. i'm pretty much cool with god, i don't think god hates gay people or wants church people to be the nasty sons of bitches that they sometimes are... sometimes, though, i wish there were someone corporeal to shake (in the manner in which one should never shake a baby) and say IN WHAT WAY IS THIS SUPPOSED TO BE A LEARNING EXPERIENCE YOU FUCKING SADISTIC BASTARD???!!! some days i want to curse god and die. i can't understand the debates people are still having about terri schiavo, because i don't see how death is possibly a bad thing. which is the bad thing about being a christian- the worst-case scenario is at least hypothetically pretty lousy. i have a feeling if i learned more theology i would be able to argue around that easily, but... yeah.
ok, bed, thinking happy thoughts.

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